An Idea
I was on a long drive with my buddy E and he theorized that the reason I’m being gangstalked is because of something I know—some sort of information that I possess.
When he said that, the one thing that came to mind was something that happened to me while I was in jail (I’ll go into why I was in jail in another post). This event that came to mind, it was something thoroughly enjoyable and that I had brought onto myself.
I’ve been in jail a number of times (I’m a slow learner?) and it seems like every time I’m incarcerated my mom tries to get me to read the scriptures.
This time around I was in jail during Covid and they were trying to figure out things like how to do a jury trial while maintaining social distancing. Remember social distancing? Fun times.
I spent an entire year waiting to go to trial. And with all that time on my hands, I decided I’d finally read the Book of Mormon. Why not?
A Promise
I promise I’m not gonna preach. I’m not gonna try to convince anyone of anything. I’m simply going to describe an experience I had. I just happened to be in jail when it happened.
A Quote
There’s a part in the beginning, before the actual book even starts, that says something like, If you want to know…
Aww heck, I’ll just use the actual quote. Here it is:
We invite all men everywhere…
And of course they mean women too (but you prolly knew that).
We invite all men everywhere to read the Book of Mormon, to ponder in their hearts the message it contains, and then to ask God, the Eternal Father, in the name of Christ if the book is true. Those who pursue this course and ask in faith will gain a testimony of its truth and divinity by the power of the Holy Ghost. (See Moroni 10:3-5.)
(The referenced verses are quoted down at the end.)
The Jail Cell
Now picture this: pale yellow walls, bright flourescent lights, there’s a stainless steel toilet right there. It has a sink built-in and there’s a stainless steel desk and stool between it and the bunks. I’m on the bottom bunk, my celly up above me doing who-knows-what. There’s a square window in the cell door and occasionally someone walks up and looks in on us.
The Experiment
So I tried it—I read the book and I prayed on it to see what would happen.
Well, in all honesty, I was only about 75 pages deep when I stopped reading and said my little prayer (I went on to read the entire book). Apparently, 75 pages was enough because it worked. I got my answer.
So I said my prayer laying down on my bunk. And I said it in my head, not out loud. I guess I was self-conscious about what my celly would think (he was charged with murder).
The Answer
And when I got to the end, when I got to the part: “…in the name of Jesus Christ, amen” it started. The most feel-good, physical sensation I’ve ever felt.
It’s hard to describe but imagine a sphere about the size of a basketball. And this sphere was travelling a circuit through my body. Like up my arm, then across my chest, down my other arm then back up, down my torso, down a leg, etc. Making a path through my entire body.
And everywhere the sphere was, was like activating every cell in that section of my body. Like every cell there was dancing with joy, it felt really good. Like a warm, fuzzy, buzzing massage from within that has the power to heal. I don’t know what words to use to describe it.
And it was pulsating. Like it would grow in intensity and then get less strong, then get stronger again, then fade out again. Over and over all the while it’s travelling this circuit through my body. It was wild. I remember laughing and feeling a lot less alone.
And it seemed like I could have sat there enjoying it for as long as I wanted. I don’t remember what it was that caused me to sort of snap out of it, but it just slowly faded away. I laid there for a long time just thinking about what had just happened.
Then I started reading again.
A Suggestion
Now, if you’re gonna try this, and I recommend you do, you have to mean it. You can’t do it half-assed. You have to have at least a modicum of faith, an open mind and an open heart. And you have to come at it wanting to know the truth, not trying to disprove it. Although maybe that’d work too? I don’t know. But you should try it.
The book of Moroni is the last book in the Book of Mormon. LDS scholars say it was written about A.D. 421. The following is from Moroni chapter 10, verses 3, 4, and 5:
- Behold, I would exhort you that when ye shall read these things, if it be wisdom in God that ye should read them, that ye would remember how merciful the Lord hath been unto the children of men, from the creation of Adam even down until the time that ye shall receive these things, and ponder it in your hearts.
- And when ye shall receive these things, I would exhort you that ye would ask God, the Eternal Father, in the name of Christ, if these things are not true; and if ye shall ask with a sincere heart, with real intent, having faith in Christ, he will manifest the truth of it unto you, by the power of the Holy Ghost.
- And by the power of the Holy Ghost ye may know the truth of all things.